“Sitting on a beach in Portugal, I am asking myself if these thoughts are ever going to vanish away. When they come, my chest squeezes and there is no space left for my breath . They come unexpectedly and don’t go away so easily. They settle in my heart and frighten me to death. I feel like I am going to die. These are the last minutes of my life and I haven’t lived fully yet. I need a help. Running to the emergency room scared that this is my last heartbeat. When it comes to heart, nobody laughs. But in a few minutes, they send me home (laughing) that I am absolutely fine and that what I need is probably to fix something else.”